It is frustrating when I try to make something clear, yet it is still perceived as something it is not. I can't communicate my heart in words. I can only make the attempt to share a little. But try as we might, we can never understand someone else's heart completely, even when we are close to that person. It is definately much harder when we do not know that person and are trying to communicate feelings and reasons for those feelings.
I did say that I was not trying to replace her. Please take it like I said it.
My stipulations on what puppy I am looking for colorwise can be seen as restrictive, depending on how limited you preceive that to be. Since I have met many pits fitting the color description I am looking for, I know that I will have tens, if not hundreds to choose from in the next month or so. But just as having a color choice seems restrictive to some, having a breed choice seems restrictive to others. I've had people tell me (who had nothing against pit bulls) that I shouldn't limit my choice to one breed in case another came along.
So when I made the decision to look for a puppy and what type of puppy, I made that decision in my heart. I wanted to honor my little girl. And my decision once I made it felt right. I didn't come to this decision lightly or quickly. And I don't expect anyone else to understand why I made the decision I did. All I can say is that it feels right, and that is hugely important to me after everything I went through.
Thank you for your concerns and advice. Keep the comments and advice coming. I am not the best at explaining what I am trying to say all the time. But I'll keep trying. So thanks for being patient with me.