It's really hard for to assess whether she is stable or getting worse. She is not getting better. But she fights so hard.
She throws up a lot and drinks masses of water. We struggle to find food that she will actually eat to start off with. I've spent masses on all kinds of meat to try and now we're doing babyfood, she eats tiny portions.
She loves her cuddles and wants to sleep in the bed with us all the time, which we let her do despite the accidents.
Today when I came in I fed her and she went out in the front garden and looked like she wanted to go further so I got her leash and she wagged her tail. I thought I would just take her around the block. Well as we got to the corner of our street, her head was hanging lower and lower and finally she stopped and she was still standing but with her head down and her nose on the ground. It was awful, she's still too heavy for me to carry more than a few metres, I was totally distraught I thought she was going to die right there in the street. But I managed to call a friend who arrived in 2 minutes and carried her home for me.
David says that her kidney is totally swollen on one side, I can't tell.
I just don't know, I just keep wondering if she is suffering really badly, she doesn't show it.
Sorry this is really incoherent......