XDogs wrote:was it held by Carrie LaJeuness?
Regardless as to who did it.. what didn't you like about it?
It wasn't, though I believe she's the originator of the "quiz" we took. I'll type it up if you guys are interested - I was told we have permission so long as it's unchanged and attributed to her.
The things that I'm burnt out about were not related to the actual job, so much as other issues at work that are draining the whole staff, and making the job itself far more difficult. I still deeply believe that I'm in the right career, and will make a big difference. I just don't think the difference is happening where I am now.
I don't handle euthanasia directly. Occasionally (not quite once a day) I'm involved in the selection, and I don't think I mind that, because it means I can stop other, more adoptable animals from being pulled. I know there's guilt and issues there still, but it's not a massive stressor. The man who led the course has never once worked in a shelter and not been directly involved in euth, by means of actually doing it (he told us he killed* his first animal on his very first shift, about ten minutes after he started), or being a supervisor, and I felt like he completely blew off the stress of caring for an animal, feeding it, working on its behavior, trying to get it adopted, and then watching someone walk it into the euthanasia room. In fact, he said asking why an animal is on the list (and these were his exact words) "Is an act of aggression. Knock it off." He spent a good amount of time on the stress of being the one to take the animals in when they are surrendered, and spent a LOT of time on the stress of euthanasia, and very, very little else was said about those of us who don't do either of those things. I very much understand that those are stressful - I've talked to members of the staff about it privately, and how much I respect what they go through. But this guy succeeded in making the largest department in the shelter seem like we're being disrespectful and will just never understand how the others feel. One of my big issues is you can never tell anyone else how much pain they are in. You don't get to decide that. You just don't. And I felt like he decided my pain wasn't as valid as the others, and many of my coworkers felt the same.
*he may have said euthanized, I'm not sure. What he described was not humane, and he acknowledged that. I've been getting increasingly picky about when I use the word "euthanasia" -- sign of burn out, I suppose